In the recent past I decided to spend some time in an intentional community called pachamama in the Costa Rican jungle. During my time there I was fasting and cleansing my body as well as doing intensive breathwork to transform old behaviors that no longer serve me in my everyday life.
This experience opened up my eyes to the truth of how I create most of my life unconsciously. And by that I mean that I realised how most of my thoughts were not really mine, coming from my own experience but rather they are the product of the conditioning of the society I live in.
However for a long time I accepted them as my thoughts and acted upon them as a puppet moved by the interest of those few who controlled the society.
When I finally opened my eyes and was willing to see the truth about myself and the world, I felt liberated. I realised how my patterns are created by my experiences both negative and positive. In pachamama I learned certain tools to dismantle the conditioned parts of my mind, enabling me to remember and return to who I truly am.
As a result I am feeling strong and free because I am not being pulled and pushed in the whirpool of unconscious reactions. I am learning to take full responsibility of my thoughts and actions as I take back power over my life.
For me this is awakening. And I would like to share with you two different tools here, which helped me beyond measure to get closer and more connected to who I really am, who we really are.
The breath of Life. Without it we cannot exist in this 3 dimensional reality. Every time we take a breath we sustain ourselves with life force energy. As we inhale, we expand, we fill with aliveness and joy as we open up to infinite possibilities. Then we exhale and let go of all the waste, all that we don’t need anymore, in a surrendered outbreath.
But most of us forgot how to BREATHE. We became small. On a deeper level we are afraid to take a long, deep breath. And as we contracted we locked in all of our limiting thoughts and emotions deep into our body. We carved it into our cellular memory. Even if we don’t remember we did this. And overtime these thoughts and emotions became beliefs and patterns that rule our everyday life. We just keep running around in circles and can’t seem to find our way out. We don’t understand why all this is happening to us when often times we want the exact opposite. Isn’t that funny?
When we start breathing fully again taking deep, slow, connected breaths, we start to feel again. That means feeling all those emotions that we stuffed down and locked away into some remote part of ourselves. All these rise up with the breath so they can be seen and felt, transformed or released according to our intentions. It can be a beautiful, amazing experience but sometimes it is scary or painful to look at. But either way it is truly transformational. When you start breathing fully and an experienced breathworker guides you through this process in a gentle way, you are assured to safely land on a new treshold wherever that is for you. You will be filled with gratitude and joy because you have undertaken this journey. Wherever you are, breathwork is a simple tool to take you to the next level.
Pachamama – an Intentional Community
Only now that I am away from Pachamama I am starting to understand all that it means to me. Coming away from that sacred land and the nurturing community felt like leaving a womb and now I feel like a newborn baby, a little raw and vulnerable in the midst of this new reality.
To be held by nature and like minded people made it possible for me to open deeper and be able to give and recieve more Love. But sometimes it was not easy to be there because everything is so clear, every mirror is so shiny that it is hard to look into them. It would be easier to stay in the familiar darkness. But at the same time it feels safe to come out, knowing that you will be nourished and supported by the land and the people. And when you are reborn, you celebrate together and share the joy just as you shared the journey together. Through this process, deep bonds are formed and you feel more connected to everything, you feel that there is no separation, that you are not alone, we are all ONE.
You are filled up with incredible joy and laughter as everything celebrates with you because you’ve come HOME. To a home which is inside yourself. Nobody can take it away. From now you will always remember no matter where you are, your home is within you. And when you realize this, all you want to do is to smile and share it with others so they can remember too that we are truly magnificent beings.
Thank You Pachamama
Thank You Clarity Breathwork.
And I thank myself for undertaking this journey back home…:)
by Julia Szvath